bored by my own thoughts
how can I think about something new?
I wish I could surprise myself
– and I sometimes do
but most of the time I’m too
familiar
stable
or worst
I lack the unknown
the thrill of discovery
but even when I explore
I look mostly inward
how to
get out?
become other
loose myself again?
truth is: I’m not as interested in the world as I used to be
is this just getting old? more traumatized? or both? Did I just lack the space that could allow me to be interested?
I don’t want to know that much – I want to live, I want to feel, and I guess this makes me more focused towards myself than a quest for knowledge would<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
bored by my own thoughtshow can I think about something new?I wish I could surprise myself– and I sometimes dobut most of the time I’m toofamiliarstableor worstI lack the unknownthe thrill of discoverybut even when I exploreI look mostly inwardhow toget out?become otherloose myself again? truth is: I’m not as interested in the world as […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-221","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-vrac-de-rimes-et-de-prose"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/221","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=221"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/221\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":222,"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/221\/revisions\/222"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=221"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=221"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alienne.fr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=221"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}